Friday, November 21, 2003

Tiara Time

I bought my tiara today, so I am now ready for Em's Tiara Happy Hour. I also bought some new pants at lunch time to show off my new sexy, much flatter stomach. I do believe that there are several alcoholic drinks in my future, coumadin levels be damned.

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Tuesday, November 18, 2003

Thinner

The only good thing about breaking up with someone is the way that you almost always loose weight. I've lost five pounds on my "only eat a little bit every few days" diet.

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Sunday, November 16, 2003

After

It's amazing how everything can change in just a matter of hours. Friday I was happy thinking how it was finally the weekend and I would soon be home with Steven, only to be confronted with reality when he got home and instead told me that our life together was over.

I feel like I've been stuck in a time warp. I've only had two serious relationships and now that mine with Steven is over I am back at my parents' house sleeping in my old bedroom, alone again.

I can't seem to find any meaning in anything and hours are just passing with nothing to move towards. I haven't eaten anything since Friday afternoon but I have no hunger for anything.

I know objectively that time will heal all wounds and that these feelings will pass, but I don't think I can do this again. Steven told me that he would never hurt me and he lied. All I keep coming back to is that nothing lasts forever and everything is a lie. Why should I even bother with men and relationships since they're doomed to end some day?

Since I've lived with Steven in his condo (no longer ours now), I have three years worth of stuff at his place that I'll need to get. I also have Bella, my cat, but I can't get her since my parents have a dog and Russell, my brother, is allergic to her. Steven swore that he would take care of her until I could come get her, but I realistically can't see a time in the next few months when that will even be possible. I miss her terribly.

The worst part of this break-up is that Steven did things like taking my garage and gate openers and moving his money from the place that he kept it. Like he expected me to do something - steal his money or his car or something like that. He must not have known me at all to think I would do something like that.

I want to thank everyone who has sent me an e-mail or left a comment here. It's good to know that people care about you though it's hard to find solace when the one person who was supposed to love you no matter what finds that they don't want you in their life any longer.

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